Have you ever thought to yourself, “Maybe I’ll be a computer programmer!” In that very same moment, have you ever jumped forward in your mind to the point at which you’ve conquered all of computer programming knowledge and are now a reputable, successful coder? Have you then signed yourself up for online courses in programming, bought a coding book off the internet, and spent all your free time practicing a few basic commands a protocols? And finally, have you ever woken up six days later and thought to yourself, “Maybe I’ll be an FBI Special Agent!”. The cycle repeats…
If the person described above is anything like you, then congrats. You’ve come to the right place. I feel you.
It’s not that I lack follow-through. It’s not that I’m irresponsible. I’m just…curious. We spend so much of our time consuming information and stories. Every day I’m exposed to other people and the paths by which they make their ways in the world. When one of those paths interests me, I can’t help but imagine what it would be like to tread along it myself. Maybe it’s just how I relate to those around me, but this need I have to experiment with all the different life choices out there is a strong and driving force.
I remember as a little kid I was constantly encouraged to be curious and multifaceted. Education was equally divided between multiple disciplines, I was signed up for multiple sports teams, and my free time was spent playing with multiple toys, games & projects. As time progressed, however, I was asked to specialize further and further within every aspect of my life. Teachers started expecting greater levels of effort in classes I had a talent for while other classes became the price I had to pay in order to pursue my “purpose”. Coaches began to demand full dedication not only to one team, but even to one specific position. Free time was only classified as “productive” if it was spent engaging with and expanding on specializations from other areas of my life.
Don’t get me wrong, specialization is an absolute necessity in our world. Without specialists, we could forget about solving many of our more complex issues. However, when specialization is held up as the goal for all functional adults, curiosity and experimentation become nothing more than means to an end.
I’m starting this blog at an interesting time in my life. Back in the Spring, I graduated from the Frost School of Music at the University of Miami with a degree in classical trombone performance. I was pretty set on finding a place for myself within the world of a classical music business and hopefully someday starting my own company or organization. As we’ve all learned since March, however, the world often has other plans. Finding a job in classical music amidst the COVID-19 pandemic is quite difficult. I had leads, but nothing was panning out. Now that the stress of the situation subsided a bit, I’ve decided to look at my empty calendar as friend rather than a foe. I have no shame in admitting that I’m a curious person with a bit of an impulsive streak. I plan on trying out all kinds of cool stuff and documenting those adventures right here on the inter-webs. This is by no means an attempt to “find myself”. I honestly think that through doing this I’ll be engaging with my real self as much as I ever have. I hope you’ll stick around and keep reading! If you have any suggestions or thoughts, head over to the ‘Contact’ section of the site and let me know.